English .

 
 
OH their English~!  Feels like screaming at top of my lungs at 3 in the morning.  Bulls.  Simply and obviously technocrat fools.  Learn before you act so big.

No ?

What's the use of acting all angelic liddat on Facebook but not on any other social networking sites such as TWITTER?  You can make your profile or tweets or whatever those shits are called private but you can never hide the truth behind that extravagantly fake innocent expressions of yours.

Anddddddd . . . I know you guys will be reading this, so yeah :)  Bulls .

 

Of Engagements, Weddings & Trends .

 
Siapa cakap tunang dan kahwin awal tu sebagai satu trend, dan dia pun menggeletik macam cacing kepanasan nak cepat-cepat tunang kepoh satu dunia dengan cara yang gedik memang nak kena tumbuk.  Nuff said

  

Ps.  Just wait till you go through the hardships.  Trend your head!

 

 

Lamar? Pfftt

 
 

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku cukup meluat dengan update status dan share berita ke gosip ke video ke pasal lamaran Awal Ashaari kepada Scha Al-Yahya secara live.  Yang dikecohkan antaranya pilihan ayat yang sweet kononnya oleh Awal something like "Sudikah awak menjadi yang halal untuk saya?"  Trust me, I don't know sebab aku tak tengok video ke hape ke yang orang suruh aku tengok.  Ni pun sebab ada member update status.  Lucu kan?  Halal?  Apa definition halal bagi dia?  Hmm . . .

Sebab apa aku meluat?  Hmm . . .  Jeles?  Bukan.  Cemburu?  Bukan.  Dengki?  Bukan.  Benci?  Pun bukan.

Antaranya sebabnya adalah kita tahu diorang tu kapel dah lama.  Pegang-pegang benda biasa.  Pergi cuti sama-sama.  Laga pipi wajib ada.  So?  Fikirlah sendiri.  Lamar macam tu pun kan dah macam style orang kafir.  Mana pergi Islam sebagai ad-Din?  Susah kalau dah way of life pun memang dah ikut budaya orang sana.  It's about time pun they get married.  Kalau dia lamar cakap camni baru aku respect, "Sudikah you nikah dengan I sesudah kita bertaubat supaya kita sama-sama dapat mengurangkan dosa yang banyak kita lakukan selama ini?"  HA HA HA !

Dulik apa aku orang nak cakap aku kolot, akal sempit, poyo etc. etc.  Sebab ini memang pandangan tulus dan jujur aku.  Bagi aku, mentaliti masyarakat kita dah tahap kritikal lagi sadis sesadis sadisnya.  Rasa nak penampar semua yang cakap "untungnya Scha", "sweetnya Awal", "bestnya orang lamar camtu", blah blah blah statement perempuan-perempuan gedik seantero dunia.

Tak macho langsung.  Asal tak upload video Awal pergi jumpa bapak Scha tu dari awal berkawan ke mintak kebenaran ke hape?  Tu baru definisi sweet bagi aku.  Haa apa apa?!  Nak cakap kolot lagi la tu.  Argh

Dah dah, tak payah nak kutuk-kutuk bengang emo dengan aku.  Benda ni sangat general.  Sebab dalam satu hari ramai sangat post benda-benda bodoh tu.  Kacau mood.  Nak get off of Facebook tak mampu.  Hmph

 
 

Impian?

Apa yang kau akan buat kalau pasangan kau constantly merendah-rendahkan tampak fizikal kau sampai kau rasa cukup meluat dan hilang keyakinan diri, bagi tekanan perasaan kepada kau berkenaan saiz badan kau yang besar sampai kau percaya dia sebenarnya tak dapat terima diri kau seadanya? 

Cabut lari?  Angkat kaki?  Terus pergi?

On time? What's that? Bull!

 

Kalau kau rasa tekanan kenal orang yang tak reti menepati masa, 

kau patut bercinta dengan boyfriend aku.

Boleh bunuh diri menunggu  (hiperbola).

  

 

Lelaki .

 
Kaum yang satu ini kalau sejak azali memang dah gatal mengada dah tentu dengan orang  (BACA:  perempuan) lain pun sama.  Kan?  Tengok saja cara layanan pada kita.  Bodoh, bodoh sendiri senang percaya.

Ps.  Perempuan pun lebih kurang saja.

 

P u t u s .

Kotornya jiwa aku.  Mana boleh tengok pasangan bercinta berselisih dan harap hubungan itu takkan pulih.  Mana boleh mana boleh.  Tak boleh tak boleh.


Busuknya hati aku.  Mana boleh tengok mereka bermasam muka dan mengharapkan hubungan itu tak berjaya.  Mana boleh mana boleh.  Tak boleh tak boleh. 


Wanita terlalu mencuba, jejaka terlalu berbangga.  Aku jadi tak suka.


Tapi kan kecewa kalau ada mengharap yang sama tentang hubungan kita.
Buang perasaan itu Dyana, buang semuanya.



  

Stop stalking .

Nurdiyanah binti Md Yunus,

PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PRETTY PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE AND STOP FEELING SO ENVIOUS AND JEALOUS OF OTHER COUPLES STOP FEELING SO ENVIOUS AND JEALOUS OF OTHER COUPLES STOP FEELING SO ENVIOUS AND JEALOUS OF OTHER COUPLES STOP FEELING SO ENVIOUS AND JEALOUS OF OTHER COUPLES STOP FEELING SO ENVIOUS AND JEALOUS OF OTHER COUPLES STOP FEELING SO ENVIOUS AND JEALOUS OF OTHER COUPLES PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE !

IT'S NOT OKAY EVEN IF IT'S YOU BOYFRIEND'S PROFILE NO NO NO NO NO NO IT'S NOT OKAY AND STOP FEELING INSECURE WHEN HE'S BEING NICE TO OTHER WOMAN PLEASE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP STOP STOP !

Source:  Google.

Oh but wait, it's socially acceptable~  Let me just view that profile one more time.

ARGHHHH !  NO NO NO !

Ok, the couples?  They are just a bunch of show-offs.  They like to get attention.  They feel proud when people know they are currently in a relationship.  They like it when people compliment their loving attitude towards one another.  Usually those kinds of relationship won't last, God forbid.  

It's better not to announce your uncertain relationship to everyone.  We do not know what's ahead of us.  Whether that person is our other half or soul mate or significant other or not, we just never know.  I'll just have to keep reminding this to myself too.  

My boyfriend?  Oh well maybe she's just his old school mate or something.  And that he's just sharing his opinion.  Or he's just being polite.  And that I have to remember that he's a very friendly person.  Or he likes that woman.  Or his feelings changed.  Or he found someone new.  Or he got tired and bored with me.  Or he doesn't feel that I'm important to him anymore.  

NO DIYANAH NO !  STOP TAKING THINGS SO NEGATIVELY STOP STOP STOP !  HE LOVES YOU (yeah right) WITH ALL HIS HEART !  HE WON'T GO TO SOMEONE ELSE NO NO HE WON'T NOT EVEN AFTER YOU GUYS ARE MARRIED !  HE'LL LOVE YOU TILL DEATH DO BOTH OF YOU PART !  

Hmm, okay.  As if.

Next time someone asks me why did I stalk his / her profile:

Hehe ;)
Source:  Google.

  

I really have to stop doing it.  Have to

  

Autoplay.

JANGAN LETAK LAGU AUTOPLAY DEKAT BLOG OR BETTER YET, JANGAN LETAK TERUS!  THIS IS BASIC RULE, TAKKAN TAK TAU.  PEOPLE VIEW YOUR BLOG TO READ YOUR ENTRIES, NOT TO DANCE TO THOSE TUNES.  YES, TAK DAPAT DINAFIKAN YANG MAYBE LAGU TU BEST BUT NO THANK YOU I GOT MY OWN PLAYLIST TURNED ON!

Please, no hard feelings.  I'm saying this for your own greater good.  No lie.  No, I'm not only referring to one particular blog but tons of them!  And no, I'm not jealous of you for God's sake.  If your entries are interesting enough, you don't need any songs to 'brighten up' your readers' mood.  So be confident with yourself.  And LEARN TO SPELL, PEOPLE!  Thanks.


Am I being clear enough?

Invisible.

 

I take these pills to make me thin I dye my hair, and cut my skin I tried everything, to make them see me But all they see, is someone that's not me

Even when I'm walking on barb wire Even when I sat myself on fire Why do I always feel invisible, invisible Everyday I try to lock my past Even though inside I'm such a mess Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Here inside, my quiet heart You cannot hear, my cries for help I tried everything, to make them see me But every one, sees what I can't be 

Sometimes when I'm alone I pretend that I'm a queen It's almost believable

 

Skylar Grey - Invisible.

Note to Self. again

 
   
Selagi belum nikah jangan nak ngada-ngada tunjuk dia lah nyawa dia lah raga sayang sangat la konon-kononnya.  Bila dia dah bosan dia tak tunggu lama dia blah dia jalan.  Ok?



   

Any Vacancies Anywhere?

Sekarang most budak-budak U cuti (IPTA), yes I'm aware of that.  Lagi-lagi kalau yang tengah pursue Bachelor or higher education memang sangap habis cuti 4 bulan kan kan kan.  Ye, aku faham.  Macam aku jugak.  Apply untuk intern / temporary position lebih dua tiga la jugak, tapi takda rezeki lagi kut.  Takda kena panggil pun -___-"  Just so if it happens that I'm still unemployed after the school holidays in June, my elder sister asked me to work at her school's koperasi.


Tapi sangap camana pun a no no I would never go against my principle in which, I should never ever click like to any stupid some sort of fan page lah ke community page kat Facebook yang memang nama pun dah terang-terang bodoh.  Ok ok aku faham itu hak korang tapi tak rasa malu ke like benda camtu?


Aaa takpa la, perhaps tak semua orang faham apa aku cuba sampaikan.  But here are some of the lame pages some people in my friend list clicked Like.  No offense! 

• Saya harap awak tau saya still sayangkan awak
• Xnak kaTa apa2x,Hanya Mampu LIKE (".) 
• Tak Mo La Sedey-Sedey Awak~~ Allah Bersama Kita Kan :')
• Pertama Kali Saya Nampak Awak,Saya Rasa Nak Kenal dengan Awak
• Awak !Nak number awak b0le?
• Hahh !! tudia awek cun~ jom jom kacau.
• AGAK-AGAK, BILA KITA BOLEH COUPLE?
• Saya tak bole laa nak komen awak, nanti ade org jeles.
• Uuuuu gangster abang ni~
• ~Sorry!  I Dah Serik Nak Bercinta~
• Bukan Kekasih Namanya Jika Hatinya Tidak Pernah Merindu Dan Cemburu
• AKU Rindu Sayang KAMU
• Tangan ke dada mata ke atas (courtesy of Munira Ramadhan)

+  And oh well, you name the rest.

Hadoihhhh laaaa!  Siap tulisan kecik besar sakai laaaa.  Yang create page tu pun confirm-confirm sangap sangat lah tu takde mende sangat nak buat.  Ahahaha.  Selain itu, ada juga yang sakai buat page quote daripada movie & contestants Maharaja Lawak.

Super Lame-O!

Ok dah cukup gelakkan orang, bye.



Ps.  Ada kerja kosong gaji best tak untuk aku?  Hoho.

 

By day ?

  
Nothing can prove how unhealthy and boring my life is other than the fact that I eat due to boredom & sleep 'cause I got (read:  WANT) nothing else better to do.

Well at least that's after I refused to mention about my mood swings & thinking what the heck, I got nothing to lose if I just tell anyway !

Ergh, this is boring !  And I can't stop myself from blaming the swings.  My throat hurt due to constant coughing I guess.  It's killing me even to swallow plain water.  Minor nose bleed occurred earlier this evening, really hates the smell of blood these days.  Not that I've always loved it before, but . . . you got me, don't ya?  Whatever.


Thought of starting a healthy diet but failed in every try.  I almost cried seeing my pictures 1 to 4 years back.  If I felt over sized back then, so what am I now?  A humongous monster?!  T_T

I had Nasi Beriyani + Ayam Madu from Restoran Khalifah for lunch today.  So I thought it should last until tomorrow (eheh, which I, myself doubt) & I'll just eat something light (read:  LESS CARB) for dinner.  That's only what I THOUGHT.  I got hungry by 10 p.m. & also was too bored & couldn't find something more beneficial of my interest to do.

So, I decided to eat by first, raiding the kitchen !

- - - - - - - - - -


I want you to know that I had the most sincere intention.  I reminded myself constantly of my target to lose some weight.  That's good right?  At least sincere & good intentions count.

However, my Sir Y messed up my mood for he couldn't leave early yet AGAIN from his office today.  Most likely would spend another one of his nights sleeping (read:  NAPPING) in his office, precisely only in his small workstation.  Not that he would come home to me anyway, but still, it would be nice to talk on the phone getting ready for bed at the same time.

Nevermind that.  All I am trying to say, my mood swung abruptly because of that.  Drama queen much?  Yeah, I know.  Teehee~  Went into the kitchen & found mum doing some cleaning.  She told me there are still a number of polystyrene of Nasi Beriyani left & just as you can tell, I ate it.

Not in full portion but yes, I ate it.

Not that I felt good about it but yes, I ate it.

Some time after 10, I ate high carb food & screwed my so-planned healthy diet.  It's not like I was THAT hungry !  If you know what I mean.  I was just feeling like eating something good, something to chew on just to pass the time.  Instead of spreading some mixed fruit jam on the bread, I chose to be fat & eat the Nasi Beriyani.  And no, I don't need anyone else to remind me how fat I got by day, I can tell that to my self.  How pathetic.

Nasi Beriyani with Ayam Madu & Sirap Cincau.

Apple for dessert. 

Please someone hire me with good pay !  Pleaseeee, I promise I'll work hard :(
I don't wanna rot obese-ly at home !  I wanna have some good office work related experiences.

I don't wanna be the lazy-ass, fat me ever again !  Please >.<


Ps.  I even wrote this entry due to boredom & planned its contents while I was having dinner with Home Alone 2 on.

Growth & Diversification.

  

Aku masih tak faham kenapa setiap bulan majalah Remaja akan promosi blog-blog orang tak reti mengeja dan cerita hidup mereka semata!  Tsk tsk tsk, sungguh tak berkembang.  Contoh yang entah hape buat remaja.

 

Where's my dose tonight?

Extremely suck English grammar for such simple sentences are major turn-offs!  Please, let us all improve together.  LEARN EVERY TIME!  Learning is always a continuous process, it SHOULD NEVER stop.  For instance, you are still considered to be learning the art of being big fat mean annoying busy body gossip monger while gossiping because this is the time where you learn how to be a hypocrite and make up stories about people or better yet, you are actually tutoring people to do the same as you ;)  Heh.

So, learn.  English is fun, in fact, I fell in and out of love with it.  You may not be exposed to the 'English-like' environment, but at least try.  I'm not a paid editor, I'm just an arse-kisser.

Ahh, people will never stop talking and assuming.

Stop judging me based on stories you heard from people.  People suck, they lie.  They tell wonders about the person they like and made up stories about those they are not close with (or maybe due to some revengeful intention).  I'm the kind who's not afraid to speak up my mind.   But living with such mentalities refrained me from continuing to do so.  And maybe that is why I'm outcasted most of the time and hated.  It's a globalized world today!  Wake up people, you're not going to be here forever.


So, let's be friends.  If you find that I'm someone who's not worth befriended with, then leave.  Talk to me, observe me, know my personality, read me through my writings.  Do whatever you want to rate me as a person, but never ever use a shortcut:  by hearing rumors and  slanders.  I found that those who do that are stupid, easy peasy.

Pardon me, I haven't got my Red Bull dose tonight.

Antara Cantik & 'Practicality' . .

Assalamu'alaikum w.b.t & selamat sejahtera.

Di malam Jumaat yang indah ini izinkan saya mencoret sesuatu yang indah buat tatapan para pembaca.


Arghhh, tak boleh tak boleh.  Hipokrit sangat dah tuuu -_____-"
Tapi bagi salam tu betul-betul ha !  Jawab sekarang !


Macam ni je la, straight to the point.  Hari ni ada pasaq malam kat bandar Dungun.  Heh, bandar ka?  Mulut ceq memang jahat sangat tapi bandar apa lagu tu ceq duk sini sejak 2008 takda perubahan dan kemajuan dari segi mental, fizikal & spiritual (eh?) sibuk nak renovate ka besarkan ka luaskan ka apa ka kat jalan raya nun tak siap-siap jugak.  Makin porak-peranda ada la.  Lubang merata-rata.  Buat rosak kereta ja.  Debu toksah ceghita la, ceq peluh basah kuyup basuh kereta pukui 5 petang hari ni esok pukui 8 pagi boleh lukis-lukis dah kat kegheta ceq.  Buat ceq hampa ja.


Tak pa la, ceq bukan nak bincang pasai tu.  Ceq memang tak suka pi tempat ramai orang ni.  Sesaq.  Dengan bau pelbagai toksah ceghita la tapi ceq kena la ceghita jugak.  Saja ja nak bagi nampak betui-betui tak seronok la pi pasaq tu.  Tapi ceq bukan apa, terpaksa.  Sepanjang dah 3 bulan sem ni mula, sekali pun ceq tak jejak lagi ke pasaq Khamis tu.  Tambahan pula, ceq puasa ganti hari ni.  Kang duk loqlaq kat rumah nak buka apa.  Toksah tanya la berapa hari lagi buat malu ceq ja.

Cuba ampa semua tengok satu gambaq ni.

Cantik na buat mata lagu ni?  Dok bubuh eyelaina macam primadona Saloma dulu fuhh memang menggoda.

Tapi dah pasepa kena pakai waktu sibuk duk pilih bundle?

Tapi dah pasepa kena bubuh time ampa nak kira berapa cucuk yong taufu?

Tapi dah pasepa ampa taruk masa muka kena tutup asap sate?

Buat rugi ja.  Ceq tau lani sibuk huha sana huha sini hak individu apa semua.  Hak bersuara, hak beragama, hak memilih, hak mengundi, hak jantina apa semua jenis haktuih la.  Tapi ni kira ceq guna hak bersuara ceq la ni.  Nak habaq mai, huduh ang tau tak?  Kalau la pasaq tu sejuk macam ampa pasang ekon, takpa la.  Ni ampa duk jalan setengah batu dari van kunyit turun nak menapak pi pasaq tu bukan dekat.  Belum sempat pikiaq apa nak beli ang dah sibuk duk lap-lap peluh.  Kalau la eyelaina ampa tu kena ayaq sampai sudah tak luntuq takpa la jugak KUT, sekurang-kurangnya tahan sikit.

Ni baru nak senyum kat adik comel jual apam balik muka ang lagu ni dah:

Kalau la ceq jadi ang, ceq malu dah.  Tak tau la kalau ang rasa takda benda pun walaupun ang nampak macam burung hantu dah.

Lepas ni toksah la duk gatai tangan sangat nak peghabih eyelaina tu buat pi pasaq.  Baik ang simpan buat pakai depan suami ka, kan lagi cun.  Suami pun tak dak dah pi cari lain.

Malas la nak cakap panjang ni pun berjela dah ceq mencarut ni.  Ampa tak suka ampa punya pasai la.  Toksah duk gatai sangat nak baca entri orang sampai habis kalau setakat nak kutuk ja, kutuk dalam hati pun tak boleh.  Takdak hak kebebasan bermonolog kat sini.

Jangan sampai ceq bukak ceghita pasai perempuan gemuk 5 kali ganda lagi dari ceq pi pasaq pakai dress singkat warna putih !  Haaa

Ps.  Tiba-tiba rasa nak tulis gaya orang Utagha.  Pengaruh Luthfi agaknya.  Maaf na orang Utagha, saja ja ni suka-suka

Cramped.

 

You're giving me yet another massive mental torture, mister !

Thanks a lot.

Pfftt, emo shit.
Okay, this picture is so last year.  Trust me

To the hell with it !

Let's rope jumping a few more this evening, jyeaaah. 

Now that the picture uploading took forever, I don't wanna study Management of Computer Networks anymoreeeeee T_T

Pfft, sissy.

Voicemail.

Wuuuuu, nak salahkan siapa kalau malas minum air?
Nak salahkan siapa kalau diet tak seimbang?
Nak salahkan siapa kalau sakit tekak?
Nak salahkan siapa kalau migrain?
Nak salahkan siapa kalau tak dapat borak sebelum tidur?

Salahkan diri sendiri T_T

Tak cukup air + tak makan

=

SEMBELIT
---> (Teran) Sakit tekak + Migrain + Orang tua dah tidur

Grr.  Ahh tak faham sudah

Malam :(

In HD!

Tak pernah emosi sebegini tengok bola sepak.
Adrenalin gila laju.
Baru aku tahu perasaan benci pada pengadil, HAHA -_-"


Oh I find guys with lack of English skills are turn-offs.