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Friday, July 31, 2009


Forgive me,
but I have this cute little innocent crush on my brother's friend.
He looks so pure & clean, erghh how to explain!
Heard so many good stuffs about him :)
I like him! Enough said!

Monday, July 27, 2009


How do you feel when people always, i mean ALWAYS as in ALL THE TIME misinterpret you?
How can they really understand the emotions you're conveying only through Short Messaging System or Instant Messaging or comments on Facebook?

You're just joking around but some people take it seriously.
Haven't they heard of the quote from Joker?
"Why so serious?"
Yeah, I love the line. But I'm scared of the Joker *pardon me*

When they do not understand the terms you're using (my fellow bitches, i know you guys understand what terms i'm talking about), they'll be raging mad and accuse you of talking behind his/her back, mocking him/her and yada yada yada.
I mean, that's stupid right?
There's no harm in asking if you don't understand ANYTHING.
Please do not patronize your opponent. Think of a smart way to win.

How do you feel when people curse you with no good reason whatsoever when they actually don't even know the person you really are?
Got me, I'm a sinner. Of course I do that once in awhile!
I'm a hypocrite, in my very own special way.
And so is everyone!
You know I'm right ;)

Do not curse unless you know the limits.
Do not curse unless you're prepared to face the consequences.
Do not curse unless you know what and who you are dealing with.
Or better yet, DO NOT CURSE AT ALL!

Some people know I'm good at cursing. I mean, REAL GOOD!
They also know I'm good at hurting people's feeling.

Do you know why?
Because people, and lots and lots of people always hurt me.
Physically and mentally, no lie.
I learnt from the experiences I've been through. I learnt from THEM, those who would LOVE and kill each other to see me trip and fall *kapish*

How do you feel when you're in a very good mood but suddenly people accuse you of being too emotional?
Seriously, you are doing nothing. Maybe the tone of your voice are a bit high but that's no good reason for someone to say you're always angry about everything! *sheesh*
Those lame people, they got my sympathy :)
If it's up to me, I'll curse the person right back and do everything in my power to embarrass him/her. Trust me!

But no, I don't do that.

Do you know why?
Because I'm already much hated. Thank you very much.

So don't provoke me with your silly and petty-trying-hard attitude.
You may never know what kind of beast you might unleash from inside of me.

Be prepared.
Be very prepared.

Monday, July 20, 2009

How You Love Me Now

So it's 12:53 am. Freaking tired. Today was a very exciting plus tiring plus lonely plus 'miserable at best' plus unfortunate day ever for me. Ask me why please. It's okay, I'll still tell. Just got back to the room around 11 something. Yeah, at night. I am sorry Mum if you're reading this, I know how much you hate it when I go out until late at night, but still, I was just going out for some recreation since it has been forever since I last do sports. I missed my younger brothers & sister so much & I feel very lonely every time I reminiscence the time when I'm at home during the holidays, how eager Fahmi the youngest was asking me to play some badminton with him. So I took the advantage of tomorrow's holiday by playing some badminton & squash in a hall at the stadium.

Honestly, that was the first time ever I've been in there even though I've already been staying at this dungeon for more than a year. It was fun, sprained the ankle a little bit. Feeling sore here & there but still, I had a great time; went there with the roommate Fatin Dalila & met up with some boyfriends.

Because girls are supposedly to be shy around boys, so yeah I was too. Play just a game or two for the badminton since the hall was dominated by boys. Oh and of course some of them are superb hot too! :) Oh well, just scratch that.

Earlier this evening, I failed to step on a stair & fell over. And guess what? I got this huge bruise on my left knee! It hurts so much & make it difficult for me to pray & accomplish & complete my daily routines.


If there are actually any readers for the blog, I'm very thankful & can you at least give your opinions on my little perception towards the huge human race called male? It'll be much appreciated. It's okay enough if you already took your time to read this long post.

To Aisyah Rozi, please note that I'm not writing this in continuation of your post, to plagiarize your topic or anything. This is something that has just occurred to someone I know very well.

It may be me, or even you!

So here it goes.
How can guys be 'in love' with more than one girl in a moment? Yeah I know girls tend to have over passionate feelings like that too but the term 'PLAYBOY' is much more commonly used than the playgirl. Men are sweet talkers, correct? They can say all these charming words towards a girl but the next thing you know, he'll be sleeping in bed with other girl. They just have this kinda soft tongue & just know the right words to say, the right lies to convey. I tell you, it's very rare for young adult men to be so sensitive & caring & sensible & loyal towards a girl nowadays. Oh well I know it's the same goes to the girls too.

How do you feel when the guy who showed his very deep interest in you this morning; calling you dear, hold your hand, display a very sweet smile that may raise you up into the sky & those & that, but later that very evening you found out that he's doing & saying the same to another girl? I've been through that I tell you. NO LIE.

What is that for actually? To show how 'macho' he is, if he can get as many babes as he wants? To show how girls are easily falling in & out of love? Let me tell you something guys, love is not something that you can make a fool out of. Why should you play the innocent girls' feelings with all those crappy disgusting as-if-they-are-sweet words?! No doubt men are better off as the meanest creature on earth more than women.

Please don't disregard me as a sexist. Because of course, I'm not. I'm mad. Seriously, I'm feeling that certain men still think women are 'something' that they can play with. Something that will not last for long. You make this girl feel very special & unique. But have you ever think what will happen when one day the secret you've been hiding from everyone eventually burst out? Even if you have FOUR lovely babes you've secured with your words & smile but not with your heart, you will of course lose all of them as time passes by.

Don't go round telling your friends that you're in pursuit of this girl or that girl. Don't repeat it to her how cute you think she is or stuffs like that, which can make the girl feel very much appreciated & loved, if you are not actually interested in her. That will only crash all her hopes & dreams IF she IS interested in you too.

Guys. Oh, or is it just one of your way to find the perfect match for you? Who's the nice one, who's the bitchiest, who's the smartest or who's the dumbest to fell into your trap? Is that just it?! A stupid game you guys created? Well it's not fun at all. You'll be building this huge mountain of hope for the girls but the next thing YOU & EVERYONE know you were just fooling around just to fill your past time.

I just feel a little emotional tonight/morning. It could have been because I woke up around 6 something in the morning & still hasn't get any sleep or even nap throughout the day. But as I speak/type, I am sure I am not crappy or drunk or high on drugs.

Please guys, I dare begging you & even kneel down in front of you. Just don't say you like more than one girl & flirt with each & everyone of them everyday & every minute through SMS but you have no intention whatsoever to have a serious or steady relationship. There's nothing wrong if you just confess your passionate feelings to the girl that you like or perhaps even love her!

There's this one thing about girls; they really hate being made as 'toys'. Because when they knew, they'll come & haunt you no lie no lie since revenge is as sweet as honey bee. This is something I wrote based on experience.

Call me a conservative but I still think most girls love to be loved & declaring a serious relationship is very important. Dishonesty is something to loathe! I'm sick of you. I'm sick of your act of concern towards me. I'm sick of your lies when you say you gave no hope to any of your girlfriends. You're super duper dumb if you think I will never manage to know what's in your mind! What's behind that charming smile! What's undercover the flirting eyes! You never know about me. Please, if I'm a friend, you should treat me as one, but not as the 4th girl of your dream! Now you guys know *sigh*

++ Thanks dear brother for pointing out that girls always get the wrong impression when guys are just trying to be nice :) It's true indeed. But there are certain limits that guys should obey.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009


I seriously went off the limits.

I have stupidly make a fool out of myself.

Oh I really need my elder brothers to comfort me.

Guys, seriously I'm in need of all of you!

But even if they are here by my side, I don't know which to tell first or even what to tell them.

I'm not missing home that much.

But I just want 'Aisyah here with me

God, I miss her too much.

Lately I've done something so terrible that even me, myself can't forgive me for doing that.

But it still can be corrected. I hope

I suck big time!

Honestly, I don't even know the main purpose of writing this post.

Again, I suck big time! Isn't it just too obvious?!

Arghhhh. I want my parents, all my 9 brothers, my 2 sisters, my 2 sisters-in-law, my brother-in-law, the annoying nephew & the angelic nieces!

Suddenly feel so sad; I spent the last evening in Shah Alam with 'Aisyah in a playground :')

Just pray everything is going to be alright for me. Please
Anyone will do

Ps. The movie Syurga Cinta is cool, especially the part when the grandpa explains about the 3 'jodoh' in life :) Really hope I can meet the 'jodoh from Allah s.w.t' real soon.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Tolong Sedar Diri

Siapa yang belum habis ganti puasa Ramadhan tahun lepas itu tolong ganti cepat ye.

Ni dah dalam bulan Rejab dah ni.

Kalau yang perempuan nanti dengan tuan sewa rumah mintak duit bulanan lagi.
Tup tup Ramadhan dah tiba. Haa tak pasal pasal fidyah kang

Sedar-sedar diri tu sikit.
Dah tua ni banyak-banyakkan amal ibadah!

OK, aku poyo. Aku ada 3 setengah hari lagi ni -____-"

Yes, tepat sekali. Aku sedang berpuasa.
Aku sedang lapar tapi chill, aku kuat!

Tengah puasa. Sebab tu emo sikit

Apa?! EMO?

Yes, tepat sekali. Aku emo.
Ramai yang turut berkata begitu.

Tapi apa? Oh tidak, tidak sama sekali.
Aku tidak menafikan.

Pengajaran cerita ini, ganti puasa secepat mungkin

Thursday, July 9, 2009


Each and every time I enter the classroom, I will feel something different.
Something so scary, tiring & heavy at the same time.

I feel like I'm carrying a burden; of all the problems in the world.
I always feel tired & scared not to succeed in this field I'm running on.

Dad once told me that nothing in this life will get easier.
Each and every semester I'll face new challenges & need to learn new lessons.
This semester is no exception.

I got scared of the subject English for Academic Purposes.
I got butterfly in my stomach just by hearing the Introduction to Business Mathematics subject.
I got worried if I will ever master the Mandarin Language.
I got headache just by thinking how tricky the subject Bahasa Melayu Pengurusan Pejabat might be.

I need guidance. I need the spirit to study.
I need to score just like the semester before.

Perhaps I shouldn't push myself too hard.
Trust me, I don't want to repeat any subjects just like any other sane person.

I really want to make my parents proud of me.
Especially my dad, since he has gone through hardships to bring up the family & sending me to this dungeon not only time consuming for him but also a huge sum of money is involved.

Dear my friends & family,
please pray for me :')

I miss you guys

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Not A Virgin Anymore

Kesucian Kolej Kapas telah dinodai!


Boo boo boo~

Usaha kami sia-sia, hmmphh

Tolong sedar diri pleaseeee. Walaupun ini kamu punya rezeki

Tuesday, July 7, 2009


Hari ni kelas mula dah.
Pagi pagi lagi dah kelas CTU 263 (Islam & Pengurusan).
Kejap lagi pun ada kelas,
BEL 311 (English for Academic Purposes) dan MAT 108 (Introduction to Business Mathematics)


Kau orang percaya tak aku kurus gila sekarang?

Kau orang percaya tak apa aku pakai semua sesuai dengan aku?

Kau orang percaya tak abang abang aku tak pernah sekali pun panggil aku gemuk?

Kau orang percaya tak orang selalu cakap aku ni cantik sangat sampai dia orang cemburu?

Kau orang percaya tak mana mana aku jalan mesti lelaki pandang?

Kau orang percaya tak lelaki suka suwiit suwiit aku kalau tengah jalan?

Kau orang percaya tak mat mat rempit atau mat mat impak maksima suka hon hon bila aku lalu?

Kau orang percaya tak aku selalu kena kacau kacau manja dengan lelaki kat Dungun ni?

Kau orang percaya tak kalau kat Dewan Makan tu pekerja dia selalu tenung gatal muka aku lama gila waktu aku ambil makanan?

Kau orang percaya tak pekerja Dewan Makan selalu mintak nombor telefon aku?

Kau orang percaya tak mesti ada lelaki yang minat aku setiap kali mula semester baru?

Kau orang percaya tak kalau aku cakap kau orang bodoh kalau percaya semua yang aku cakap tadi?

Jangan lah percaya. Semua tu dusta
Kalau nak percaya percaya semua yang bertentangan daripada di atas ya.

Sebab aku kawan dengan orang cantik cantik.
Aku jalan dengan mereka confirm confirm aku tenggelam walau besar mana sekalipun badan aku.

Sebab aku muka tua sikit.
Ada kawan sebelah atau tak pun lelaki tetap tak berminat.


Takpa, aman sikit tak kena ganggu.
Tapi rasa macam hodoh sangat pula sampai orang tak berminat langsung walau hanya berkawan sekalipun.

*mengeluh lagi*

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Warga UiTM

Kepada pelajar baru, selamat menempuhi alam universiti
Kepada pelajar lama, selamat kembali ke kampus masing-masing

Cerita sama, keluh-kesah pun sama
Betapa rasa beratnya nak balik 'kampung halaman' semula
Betapa gelisahnya fikir cabaran yang bakal tiba

Sabtu insyaAllah aku gerak ke sana
Benci, tak suka, rimas semua ada.
Mak kata, "Awak jangan nak ngada-ngada!"

Tak sampai dua hari sahaja lagi yang tinggal untuk habiskan masa di rumah.
'Aisyah, ya 'Aisyah Raihana confirm rindu gila-gila
Oh bencinya, kenapa Dungun tu jauh sangat!

Aku malas kemas barang, tak pernah suka!
Benda paling membazir masa bagi aku, HAHA
(walaupun aku tahu sebenarnya online online apa kejadah ni lagi bazir masa. ARRRGHH! lantak ah)

Tadi terjumpa ini. Di kala cuti semester baru bermula kalau tak silap.
Zaman tidur lambat, chatting dengan kekasih oh-so-seronok
Lihat betapa noobnya dia jauh beza betul markah dengan aku.
Rindu gila-gila :D
Takpa lah, dia pun warga UiTM juga. Doakan semua ok untuk dia di Sri Iskandar sana

Azam masih menjalani MMS (Minggu Mesra Siswa). Kasihan betul
Dapat berbicara sebentar tadi. Dapat paksa dia hantar gambar dengan baju batik Mim tu.
Haa budak-budak UiTM wajib tahu. Baju panas kain langsung tak serap peluh! Ketiak basah pun boleh nampak
Tapi aneh, Azam kata kainnya ok sahaja. Tidak adil, mesti material kainnya sudah ditukar!
Bapok betul Azam tu >.<

Penyakit kulit belum pulih lagi.

Aku harap Semester 3 ni baik-baik sahaja dan segala urusan aku dipermudahkan, insyaAllah.
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