Demam!

  

Ngahahah, demam exam la sangat.  Study sikit, lepak banyak.

My towel rack is also my desk!  ^^

Bagus anak dara, sungguh study sampai tak sempat makan.  Pfft

Paper orang lain rasanya dah start hari ni.

All the best kepada yang terlibat dalam menjayakan peperiksaan akhir UiTM semester ini, hihi. 

  

 

Grammar .

  

I'll be frank with you.  I mean you, well anyone of my readers.

I'm not that good in English.  But I like the language.  I really do.  I prefer to speak to myself using the second language whenever I'm alone.  I pretend to express myself more and better that way.  And only my fiance truly understands that each time I'm freaking pissed off with something, I'll use English. 

English is fun.  However, grammar is not really on the same boat for me.  Despite the fact that grammar can be a curse sometimes whenever I'm writing (especially when I thought I used the correct one then the so-damn-intelligent Word underlines it green when I KNOW I HAVE USED IT CORRECTLY curse you Microsoft Word !), I am delighted to take some time to really understands and applies it in my everyday life. 

Learning English is an everyday process.  Oh no, LEARNING is our daily process.  I usually take time to read any English materials everyday.  Just for the fun of it.  Along with the purpose to increase and improve my vocabulary and word structures.  Call me a snob but I am very particular when it comes to the use of proper English even in assignments report writing.  However, it saddens me a bit that I seldom have the time to recheck and proofread most of my group assignments report nowadays.  When I go through the reports after submission I feel like cryingggg ~~ :'(  

Well, whatever it is, we should always open up rooms for improvements especially when it comes to the use of English.   Don't act as if we know everything and would not take any critics and suggestions for answers.  Hey, I can proudly tell you I scored well for my MUET but it doesn't mean I should stop learning and forbid anyone from telling me I used the improper words and incorrect grammar.  Those I loathe the most are people who would not admit their mistakes and correct them.  They will definitely repeat the same mistakes all over again but still, they are the ones who will be complaining one day when some employers wouldn't employ them because of their low English proficiency.  By that time, I wouldn't be there to say "I'VE TOLD YOU!"  Hihi.

Have great days ahead people!

  

 

Lamar? Pfftt

 
 

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku cukup meluat dengan update status dan share berita ke gosip ke video ke pasal lamaran Awal Ashaari kepada Scha Al-Yahya secara live.  Yang dikecohkan antaranya pilihan ayat yang sweet kononnya oleh Awal something like "Sudikah awak menjadi yang halal untuk saya?"  Trust me, I don't know sebab aku tak tengok video ke hape ke yang orang suruh aku tengok.  Ni pun sebab ada member update status.  Lucu kan?  Halal?  Apa definition halal bagi dia?  Hmm . . .

Sebab apa aku meluat?  Hmm . . .  Jeles?  Bukan.  Cemburu?  Bukan.  Dengki?  Bukan.  Benci?  Pun bukan.

Antaranya sebabnya adalah kita tahu diorang tu kapel dah lama.  Pegang-pegang benda biasa.  Pergi cuti sama-sama.  Laga pipi wajib ada.  So?  Fikirlah sendiri.  Lamar macam tu pun kan dah macam style orang kafir.  Mana pergi Islam sebagai ad-Din?  Susah kalau dah way of life pun memang dah ikut budaya orang sana.  It's about time pun they get married.  Kalau dia lamar cakap camni baru aku respect, "Sudikah you nikah dengan I sesudah kita bertaubat supaya kita sama-sama dapat mengurangkan dosa yang banyak kita lakukan selama ini?"  HA HA HA !

Dulik apa aku orang nak cakap aku kolot, akal sempit, poyo etc. etc.  Sebab ini memang pandangan tulus dan jujur aku.  Bagi aku, mentaliti masyarakat kita dah tahap kritikal lagi sadis sesadis sadisnya.  Rasa nak penampar semua yang cakap "untungnya Scha", "sweetnya Awal", "bestnya orang lamar camtu", blah blah blah statement perempuan-perempuan gedik seantero dunia.

Tak macho langsung.  Asal tak upload video Awal pergi jumpa bapak Scha tu dari awal berkawan ke mintak kebenaran ke hape?  Tu baru definisi sweet bagi aku.  Haa apa apa?!  Nak cakap kolot lagi la tu.  Argh

Dah dah, tak payah nak kutuk-kutuk bengang emo dengan aku.  Benda ni sangat general.  Sebab dalam satu hari ramai sangat post benda-benda bodoh tu.  Kacau mood.  Nak get off of Facebook tak mampu.  Hmph

 
 

Final Semester .

 

Aku dah kat Dungun sekarang.
Bermulalah fasa 'Hidup segan, mati tak mahu."

Hah?  

Hmm k bye.

 

Kualiti?

 

Orang sekarang lebih prefer blog yang tak reti mengeja dan bajet-bajet saja memang motif setakat nak berlawan follower tanpa ada pengisian yang boleh dibuat berfikir dan dikongsi bersama.  Apalah nasib blog berkualiti seperti Mencari Identiti (ok, perasan gila b*b*!) ni?  Entah.

Takpalah.  Janji jangan blog tu mempunyai pengisian berunsur fitnah dan caci-maki.  Setiap penulis ada cerita mereka dan cara meluahkan serta perkongsian yang tersendiri.  Kan?  :)

 Ps.  Aku nak cuba share link blog aku at least sehari sekali lah kat Facebook.  Ok tak?  Pffftt

  

Pashi pashi .

Tekanan masih tak reti pakai pashmina yang panjang dan lebar iteww dengan cantik, kemas, tak menampakkan jelas berwajah bulat, dan menutup dada sepenuhnya.  Sekarang semua bajet-bajet cantik padahal dada tertonjol (eh?  kasarnya . . .) belakang terdedah.  Hmph.  Ada link tutorial menarik tak kawan-kawan?  *mengeluh*


Ps.  Ikan patin masak tempoyak ayah beli kat Kuantan semalam sedap gila.  Oh randomnya   -___-"

Dust Bunnies !

 

BANYAKNYA HABUK!

*tiup tiup*lap-lap*

JUMPA LAGI NANTI!

 

Petanda.

 

Nangis banyak pun tak guna.

Kerja lagi banyak, jangan hilang fokus ya!

Dia dah tak nak, jangan ngada-ngada.

Biarkan saja pergi, kalau itu hendaknya.

Ps.  Mata aku ada kutu babi.  Serius

  

 

Siapakah?

Muka tahan nafas tahan perut harus censored.

   

Gediknyaaaa.  Siapakah?  Ha ha ha

Ps.  Tak payah la nak benci-benci, aku tengah bosan ni.  Ngeh ngeh ngeh

  

 

Bukan .

  

Assalamu'alaikum w.b.t.
Macamana nak mula ya.
Lama benar tak bercerita.
Ada pembaca lagi ke?
Ada yang menunggu ke?
Ada peminat ke?

Hmm . . . Persetan.


Bukan tiada cerita gembira,
Sedih sebak tak payah kira,
Secara telitinya saya mengira,
Sudah 41 hari tiada berita.
 

Esok lusa je lah ye!  :D


   

This is random.

• Some people are just not willing to work even a bit towards success, they only wait.

• Dungun is still sombre for me.  Dull, boring.

• Guys do bad mouth about others, and when they do, they're very good at it.

• Even when we got nothing more against this other party, when they still hate you, you will unintentionally hate them back.

• People can hardly cope with changes as soon as within an hour without still feeling uncertainties.

• I miss his scent, his smile, his laughter, his wide forehead, his hair, everything.

• I get annoyed so easy that I don't even realize that I'm making weird faces.

• When your loved ones' in trouble, you'd do all you might to help them.

• Messed up; can't think of any decent birthday presents for him.

• Shopping is just not my game, not currently. 

• I fell in love with his family, so I fell in love with him all over again.

• Peeling off nose pore tape can be very hurtful.

• I've always wanted to try contact lenses.

• Some people just like to make stories about others, for the fun of it.

• I miss my nephew & nieces.  Couldn't bear to kiss them goodbye last Sunday while they were fast asleep.

• Friends can be categorized; best friend, good friend, close friend, happy friend (comes only when you're happy), work friend (comes only when they want your help), etc. etc.

• I love babies & kids up till 12 years of age.  Teens?  They're my pal ;)

• I want to write songs for him, describing how I feel.  But am not that talented *sigh 

• I loathe the sight of women wearing short sleeves with head scarf (no offense, anyone).

• Have to sleep early tonight, class at 8 tomorrow morning.

• And this is totally random, my latest passport photo:

 

Blog ?

   

 
Aku rasa dunia blogging dah kurang sengatnya sebab kurang ikhlas ahlinya.  Orang lagi berlumba nak tambah follower dan penulisan bukan datang dari jiwa.  Bertukar link lebih kepada tujuan untuk berbangga.

Entah, mungkin aku yang kolot orangnya.

  

  

Stop stalking .

Nurdiyanah binti Md Yunus,

PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PLEASE STOP STALKING PRETTY PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE AND STOP FEELING SO ENVIOUS AND JEALOUS OF OTHER COUPLES STOP FEELING SO ENVIOUS AND JEALOUS OF OTHER COUPLES STOP FEELING SO ENVIOUS AND JEALOUS OF OTHER COUPLES STOP FEELING SO ENVIOUS AND JEALOUS OF OTHER COUPLES STOP FEELING SO ENVIOUS AND JEALOUS OF OTHER COUPLES STOP FEELING SO ENVIOUS AND JEALOUS OF OTHER COUPLES PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE !

IT'S NOT OKAY EVEN IF IT'S YOU BOYFRIEND'S PROFILE NO NO NO NO NO NO IT'S NOT OKAY AND STOP FEELING INSECURE WHEN HE'S BEING NICE TO OTHER WOMAN PLEASE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP FEELING INSECURE STOP STOP STOP !

Source:  Google.

Oh but wait, it's socially acceptable~  Let me just view that profile one more time.

ARGHHHH !  NO NO NO !

Ok, the couples?  They are just a bunch of show-offs.  They like to get attention.  They feel proud when people know they are currently in a relationship.  They like it when people compliment their loving attitude towards one another.  Usually those kinds of relationship won't last, God forbid.  

It's better not to announce your uncertain relationship to everyone.  We do not know what's ahead of us.  Whether that person is our other half or soul mate or significant other or not, we just never know.  I'll just have to keep reminding this to myself too.  

My boyfriend?  Oh well maybe she's just his old school mate or something.  And that he's just sharing his opinion.  Or he's just being polite.  And that I have to remember that he's a very friendly person.  Or he likes that woman.  Or his feelings changed.  Or he found someone new.  Or he got tired and bored with me.  Or he doesn't feel that I'm important to him anymore.  

NO DIYANAH NO !  STOP TAKING THINGS SO NEGATIVELY STOP STOP STOP !  HE LOVES YOU (yeah right) WITH ALL HIS HEART !  HE WON'T GO TO SOMEONE ELSE NO NO HE WON'T NOT EVEN AFTER YOU GUYS ARE MARRIED !  HE'LL LOVE YOU TILL DEATH DO BOTH OF YOU PART !  

Hmm, okay.  As if.

Next time someone asks me why did I stalk his / her profile:

Hehe ;)
Source:  Google.

  

I really have to stop doing it.  Have to

  

Invisible.

 

I take these pills to make me thin I dye my hair, and cut my skin I tried everything, to make them see me But all they see, is someone that's not me

Even when I'm walking on barb wire Even when I sat myself on fire Why do I always feel invisible, invisible Everyday I try to lock my past Even though inside I'm such a mess Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Here inside, my quiet heart You cannot hear, my cries for help I tried everything, to make them see me But every one, sees what I can't be 

Sometimes when I'm alone I pretend that I'm a queen It's almost believable

 

Skylar Grey - Invisible.

Content.

You're never the best.

Semua orang kena sedar diri ni.  Baik lelaki mahupun perempuan.

Aku syukur.  Syukur berkenalan dengan dia.

Aku doa.  Doa insyaAllah dipertemukan jodoh bersama dia.

Aku sedar.  Sedar buruk aku banyak tapi yang nak tetap dia.

Aku sabar.  Sabar ada pelbagai kerenah aku juga dia.

Aku cuba.  Cuba berubah lebih baik demi keluarga dan dia.

Aku tahan.  Tahan mengantuk bila dia tak balik ofis dah pukul 12 pagi oi oi mana kau ni pak cik janggut sejemput oi?!  Tak reti cari rumah keeeee?!  PapaGo ada kut sekarang, jangan cari alasan!  (Eh?  Err, hehe.  Hmm maaf.  Demam ni memang emosi lebih)

Pendek kata, jangan curang ya semua orang.

Note to Self. again

 
   
Selagi belum nikah jangan nak ngada-ngada tunjuk dia lah nyawa dia lah raga sayang sangat la konon-kononnya.  Bila dia dah bosan dia tak tunggu lama dia blah dia jalan.  Ok?



   

Any Vacancies Anywhere?

Sekarang most budak-budak U cuti (IPTA), yes I'm aware of that.  Lagi-lagi kalau yang tengah pursue Bachelor or higher education memang sangap habis cuti 4 bulan kan kan kan.  Ye, aku faham.  Macam aku jugak.  Apply untuk intern / temporary position lebih dua tiga la jugak, tapi takda rezeki lagi kut.  Takda kena panggil pun -___-"  Just so if it happens that I'm still unemployed after the school holidays in June, my elder sister asked me to work at her school's koperasi.


Tapi sangap camana pun a no no I would never go against my principle in which, I should never ever click like to any stupid some sort of fan page lah ke community page kat Facebook yang memang nama pun dah terang-terang bodoh.  Ok ok aku faham itu hak korang tapi tak rasa malu ke like benda camtu?


Aaa takpa la, perhaps tak semua orang faham apa aku cuba sampaikan.  But here are some of the lame pages some people in my friend list clicked Like.  No offense! 

• Saya harap awak tau saya still sayangkan awak
• Xnak kaTa apa2x,Hanya Mampu LIKE (".) 
• Tak Mo La Sedey-Sedey Awak~~ Allah Bersama Kita Kan :')
• Pertama Kali Saya Nampak Awak,Saya Rasa Nak Kenal dengan Awak
• Awak !Nak number awak b0le?
• Hahh !! tudia awek cun~ jom jom kacau.
• AGAK-AGAK, BILA KITA BOLEH COUPLE?
• Saya tak bole laa nak komen awak, nanti ade org jeles.
• Uuuuu gangster abang ni~
• ~Sorry!  I Dah Serik Nak Bercinta~
• Bukan Kekasih Namanya Jika Hatinya Tidak Pernah Merindu Dan Cemburu
• AKU Rindu Sayang KAMU
• Tangan ke dada mata ke atas (courtesy of Munira Ramadhan)

+  And oh well, you name the rest.

Hadoihhhh laaaa!  Siap tulisan kecik besar sakai laaaa.  Yang create page tu pun confirm-confirm sangap sangat lah tu takde mende sangat nak buat.  Ahahaha.  Selain itu, ada juga yang sakai buat page quote daripada movie & contestants Maharaja Lawak.

Super Lame-O!

Ok dah cukup gelakkan orang, bye.



Ps.  Ada kerja kosong gaji best tak untuk aku?  Hoho.

 

By day ?

  
Nothing can prove how unhealthy and boring my life is other than the fact that I eat due to boredom & sleep 'cause I got (read:  WANT) nothing else better to do.

Well at least that's after I refused to mention about my mood swings & thinking what the heck, I got nothing to lose if I just tell anyway !

Ergh, this is boring !  And I can't stop myself from blaming the swings.  My throat hurt due to constant coughing I guess.  It's killing me even to swallow plain water.  Minor nose bleed occurred earlier this evening, really hates the smell of blood these days.  Not that I've always loved it before, but . . . you got me, don't ya?  Whatever.


Thought of starting a healthy diet but failed in every try.  I almost cried seeing my pictures 1 to 4 years back.  If I felt over sized back then, so what am I now?  A humongous monster?!  T_T

I had Nasi Beriyani + Ayam Madu from Restoran Khalifah for lunch today.  So I thought it should last until tomorrow (eheh, which I, myself doubt) & I'll just eat something light (read:  LESS CARB) for dinner.  That's only what I THOUGHT.  I got hungry by 10 p.m. & also was too bored & couldn't find something more beneficial of my interest to do.

So, I decided to eat by first, raiding the kitchen !

- - - - - - - - - -


I want you to know that I had the most sincere intention.  I reminded myself constantly of my target to lose some weight.  That's good right?  At least sincere & good intentions count.

However, my Sir Y messed up my mood for he couldn't leave early yet AGAIN from his office today.  Most likely would spend another one of his nights sleeping (read:  NAPPING) in his office, precisely only in his small workstation.  Not that he would come home to me anyway, but still, it would be nice to talk on the phone getting ready for bed at the same time.

Nevermind that.  All I am trying to say, my mood swung abruptly because of that.  Drama queen much?  Yeah, I know.  Teehee~  Went into the kitchen & found mum doing some cleaning.  She told me there are still a number of polystyrene of Nasi Beriyani left & just as you can tell, I ate it.

Not in full portion but yes, I ate it.

Not that I felt good about it but yes, I ate it.

Some time after 10, I ate high carb food & screwed my so-planned healthy diet.  It's not like I was THAT hungry !  If you know what I mean.  I was just feeling like eating something good, something to chew on just to pass the time.  Instead of spreading some mixed fruit jam on the bread, I chose to be fat & eat the Nasi Beriyani.  And no, I don't need anyone else to remind me how fat I got by day, I can tell that to my self.  How pathetic.

Nasi Beriyani with Ayam Madu & Sirap Cincau.

Apple for dessert. 

Please someone hire me with good pay !  Pleaseeee, I promise I'll work hard :(
I don't wanna rot obese-ly at home !  I wanna have some good office work related experiences.

I don't wanna be the lazy-ass, fat me ever again !  Please >.<


Ps.  I even wrote this entry due to boredom & planned its contents while I was having dinner with Home Alone 2 on.

DUA RATUS !

Kalau tengok pada rekod entri aku yang dicatat oleh Blogger ni, nukilan entri kali ini adalah entri aku yang ke-200.  Wah, tahniah pada diri sendiri!

Bila fikir balik, apa la yang aku merepek sepanjang 3 tahun dalam dunia blogging ni ek?  Tapi tiada signifikan pun bagi aku di sini.  Takda erti pun seberapa banyak aku punya entri.  Yang penting kualiti penulisan dan identiti diri.  Masih tak ku ketemui.  Wekkk~  Apejadah aku tulis ni >.<


Lantak la ni entri nombor berapa pun aku rasa Blogger kira je semua yang kita pernah tulis baik dalam draft sekalipun.  Aku rasa la.  Aku rasa yang aku publish takda la sampai 200 kut.  Ada yang dah peluh-peluh tulis, bila fikir balik segan pula nak dikongsi.  Ehehe :">


Aa ini sindrom orang dah tak da kerja sangat dah ni namanya.  Takda idea pun sebenarnya nak tulis entri baru.  Tapi tapi tapi, sebab entah laaaaaaaa~  Takda benda sangat nak buat.  Nak tengok movie, takdak mood.  Hmm hmm.


Dah la aku sangat hampa dengan diri sendiri sekarang ni.  Kenapa aku pandai nasihat orang je tapi sendiri tak buat?  Sendiri fail?!  Sendiri malang?!  Kenapaaaa?

Kenapa Izura Ismail, kenapa?!

HAHAHAHA.
 

Pi tidoq la perempuan.  Tak habis-habis malu malu dengan mamat tu.  Kah kah kah.  Pukui ang satgi.  Aku botakkan kau nanti!  Tak payah pi saloon.  

Rindu si baju tidur berseluar singkat di 7 Eleven bandar Dungun!  Mmmmmwaaaa~  Hi hi hi.

Dyana, si penasihat yang fail !

^_^

 

Pai Epal.

Someone made apple pie for my family & I yesterday, woot woot oh how sweet.

Oh well it wasn't really made for us, it was actually for _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ . . . . . . . . . . . . . .  la la la la la la dum dum dum dum ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ tenet tenet tenet tenet wo wo wo wo wo wo ! ! ! ! ! ! ? ? ? ? ? ?

OMG!  Gila dah hilang skill menulis huwaaaaaaaaaaaa apa aku nak cakap sebenarnya ni?  T_T

. . . . . . . . . .

AKU SERU SEMANGAT MENULISKU!  KEMBALILAH KEPADAKUUUUU!

. . . . . . . . . .

No?  Oh dear.


Camni la senang cerita.  Encik Y si orang tua datang pukul berapa tah malam semalam rasanya nak dekat midnight juga beri pai epal bertatangkan pinggan Kak Cik dia imported from Meru, Klang walaupun dia janji dalam setengah jam sampai tapi rasanya sampai sejam dah aku menunggu sempat jua habiskan tonton filem The Lovely Bones buat sakit hati tengok atuk tua psiko -_-"


Pai sangat sedap tapi masam sedikit.  Tu la, sombong lagi beli epal hijau US.  Keh keh keh.  Nevertheless, the dough not bad, layan jugak makan.  Terima kasih daun keladi, lepas ni nak yang lebih best lagi.  Hoho.  Jap, kenapa bukan awek yang masak-masak nak ngorat hati pakwe ni?  Ish, buruk perangai. 


Dia buat untuk ibunda dia sebenarnya, tapi dia nak berlagak sweet bagi awek rasa jua pai epalnya maka saya terima dengan hati terbuka.  Pakwe jenis apa tah saja bagi awek makanan lewat malam, kata suruh kurus!  Haiyaaaa >.<


Terima kasih adik-beradik Encik Y yang awesome riuh turut membantu sama :)
Terima kasih lagi dan lagi encik walaupun awak asyik buat saya bad mood start dari pagi hari lagi menyesal dah tak nak kejut lagi lepas ni.  Bye

Pai yang dah tinggal separuh dilahap Fauzi, eh, kami :D

Ps.  Selamat Hari Ibu & Hari Guru sekaligus boleh tak?  Pertama kali pecah tradisi tak melawat sekolah kembali untuk sambutan Hari Guru selepas 3 tahun berturut.