English .

 
 
OH their English~!  Feels like screaming at top of my lungs at 3 in the morning.  Bulls.  Simply and obviously technocrat fools.  Learn before you act so big.

Of Engagements, Weddings & Trends .

 
Siapa cakap tunang dan kahwin awal tu sebagai satu trend, dan dia pun menggeletik macam cacing kepanasan nak cepat-cepat tunang kepoh satu dunia dengan cara yang gedik memang nak kena tumbuk.  Nuff said

  

Ps.  Just wait till you go through the hardships.  Trend your head!

 

 

Lamar? Pfftt

 
 

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku cukup meluat dengan update status dan share berita ke gosip ke video ke pasal lamaran Awal Ashaari kepada Scha Al-Yahya secara live.  Yang dikecohkan antaranya pilihan ayat yang sweet kononnya oleh Awal something like "Sudikah awak menjadi yang halal untuk saya?"  Trust me, I don't know sebab aku tak tengok video ke hape ke yang orang suruh aku tengok.  Ni pun sebab ada member update status.  Lucu kan?  Halal?  Apa definition halal bagi dia?  Hmm . . .

Sebab apa aku meluat?  Hmm . . .  Jeles?  Bukan.  Cemburu?  Bukan.  Dengki?  Bukan.  Benci?  Pun bukan.

Antaranya sebabnya adalah kita tahu diorang tu kapel dah lama.  Pegang-pegang benda biasa.  Pergi cuti sama-sama.  Laga pipi wajib ada.  So?  Fikirlah sendiri.  Lamar macam tu pun kan dah macam style orang kafir.  Mana pergi Islam sebagai ad-Din?  Susah kalau dah way of life pun memang dah ikut budaya orang sana.  It's about time pun they get married.  Kalau dia lamar cakap camni baru aku respect, "Sudikah you nikah dengan I sesudah kita bertaubat supaya kita sama-sama dapat mengurangkan dosa yang banyak kita lakukan selama ini?"  HA HA HA !

Dulik apa aku orang nak cakap aku kolot, akal sempit, poyo etc. etc.  Sebab ini memang pandangan tulus dan jujur aku.  Bagi aku, mentaliti masyarakat kita dah tahap kritikal lagi sadis sesadis sadisnya.  Rasa nak penampar semua yang cakap "untungnya Scha", "sweetnya Awal", "bestnya orang lamar camtu", blah blah blah statement perempuan-perempuan gedik seantero dunia.

Tak macho langsung.  Asal tak upload video Awal pergi jumpa bapak Scha tu dari awal berkawan ke mintak kebenaran ke hape?  Tu baru definisi sweet bagi aku.  Haa apa apa?!  Nak cakap kolot lagi la tu.  Argh

Dah dah, tak payah nak kutuk-kutuk bengang emo dengan aku.  Benda ni sangat general.  Sebab dalam satu hari ramai sangat post benda-benda bodoh tu.  Kacau mood.  Nak get off of Facebook tak mampu.  Hmph

 
 

Impian?

Apa yang kau akan buat kalau pasangan kau constantly merendah-rendahkan tampak fizikal kau sampai kau rasa cukup meluat dan hilang keyakinan diri, bagi tekanan perasaan kepada kau berkenaan saiz badan kau yang besar sampai kau percaya dia sebenarnya tak dapat terima diri kau seadanya? 

Cabut lari?  Angkat kaki?  Terus pergi?

Autoplay.

JANGAN LETAK LAGU AUTOPLAY DEKAT BLOG OR BETTER YET, JANGAN LETAK TERUS!  THIS IS BASIC RULE, TAKKAN TAK TAU.  PEOPLE VIEW YOUR BLOG TO READ YOUR ENTRIES, NOT TO DANCE TO THOSE TUNES.  YES, TAK DAPAT DINAFIKAN YANG MAYBE LAGU TU BEST BUT NO THANK YOU I GOT MY OWN PLAYLIST TURNED ON!

Please, no hard feelings.  I'm saying this for your own greater good.  No lie.  No, I'm not only referring to one particular blog but tons of them!  And no, I'm not jealous of you for God's sake.  If your entries are interesting enough, you don't need any songs to 'brighten up' your readers' mood.  So be confident with yourself.  And LEARN TO SPELL, PEOPLE!  Thanks.


Am I being clear enough?

By day ?

  
Nothing can prove how unhealthy and boring my life is other than the fact that I eat due to boredom & sleep 'cause I got (read:  WANT) nothing else better to do.

Well at least that's after I refused to mention about my mood swings & thinking what the heck, I got nothing to lose if I just tell anyway !

Ergh, this is boring !  And I can't stop myself from blaming the swings.  My throat hurt due to constant coughing I guess.  It's killing me even to swallow plain water.  Minor nose bleed occurred earlier this evening, really hates the smell of blood these days.  Not that I've always loved it before, but . . . you got me, don't ya?  Whatever.


Thought of starting a healthy diet but failed in every try.  I almost cried seeing my pictures 1 to 4 years back.  If I felt over sized back then, so what am I now?  A humongous monster?!  T_T

I had Nasi Beriyani + Ayam Madu from Restoran Khalifah for lunch today.  So I thought it should last until tomorrow (eheh, which I, myself doubt) & I'll just eat something light (read:  LESS CARB) for dinner.  That's only what I THOUGHT.  I got hungry by 10 p.m. & also was too bored & couldn't find something more beneficial of my interest to do.

So, I decided to eat by first, raiding the kitchen !

- - - - - - - - - -


I want you to know that I had the most sincere intention.  I reminded myself constantly of my target to lose some weight.  That's good right?  At least sincere & good intentions count.

However, my Sir Y messed up my mood for he couldn't leave early yet AGAIN from his office today.  Most likely would spend another one of his nights sleeping (read:  NAPPING) in his office, precisely only in his small workstation.  Not that he would come home to me anyway, but still, it would be nice to talk on the phone getting ready for bed at the same time.

Nevermind that.  All I am trying to say, my mood swung abruptly because of that.  Drama queen much?  Yeah, I know.  Teehee~  Went into the kitchen & found mum doing some cleaning.  She told me there are still a number of polystyrene of Nasi Beriyani left & just as you can tell, I ate it.

Not in full portion but yes, I ate it.

Not that I felt good about it but yes, I ate it.

Some time after 10, I ate high carb food & screwed my so-planned healthy diet.  It's not like I was THAT hungry !  If you know what I mean.  I was just feeling like eating something good, something to chew on just to pass the time.  Instead of spreading some mixed fruit jam on the bread, I chose to be fat & eat the Nasi Beriyani.  And no, I don't need anyone else to remind me how fat I got by day, I can tell that to my self.  How pathetic.

Nasi Beriyani with Ayam Madu & Sirap Cincau.

Apple for dessert. 

Please someone hire me with good pay !  Pleaseeee, I promise I'll work hard :(
I don't wanna rot obese-ly at home !  I wanna have some good office work related experiences.

I don't wanna be the lazy-ass, fat me ever again !  Please >.<


Ps.  I even wrote this entry due to boredom & planned its contents while I was having dinner with Home Alone 2 on.

Growth & Diversification.

  

Aku masih tak faham kenapa setiap bulan majalah Remaja akan promosi blog-blog orang tak reti mengeja dan cerita hidup mereka semata!  Tsk tsk tsk, sungguh tak berkembang.  Contoh yang entah hape buat remaja.

 

Where's my dose tonight?

Extremely suck English grammar for such simple sentences are major turn-offs!  Please, let us all improve together.  LEARN EVERY TIME!  Learning is always a continuous process, it SHOULD NEVER stop.  For instance, you are still considered to be learning the art of being big fat mean annoying busy body gossip monger while gossiping because this is the time where you learn how to be a hypocrite and make up stories about people or better yet, you are actually tutoring people to do the same as you ;)  Heh.

So, learn.  English is fun, in fact, I fell in and out of love with it.  You may not be exposed to the 'English-like' environment, but at least try.  I'm not a paid editor, I'm just an arse-kisser.

Ahh, people will never stop talking and assuming.

Stop judging me based on stories you heard from people.  People suck, they lie.  They tell wonders about the person they like and made up stories about those they are not close with (or maybe due to some revengeful intention).  I'm the kind who's not afraid to speak up my mind.   But living with such mentalities refrained me from continuing to do so.  And maybe that is why I'm outcasted most of the time and hated.  It's a globalized world today!  Wake up people, you're not going to be here forever.


So, let's be friends.  If you find that I'm someone who's not worth befriended with, then leave.  Talk to me, observe me, know my personality, read me through my writings.  Do whatever you want to rate me as a person, but never ever use a shortcut:  by hearing rumors and  slanders.  I found that those who do that are stupid, easy peasy.

Pardon me, I haven't got my Red Bull dose tonight.

Cramped.

 

You're giving me yet another massive mental torture, mister !

Thanks a lot.

Pfftt, emo shit.
Okay, this picture is so last year.  Trust me

To the hell with it !

Let's rope jumping a few more this evening, jyeaaah. 

Now that the picture uploading took forever, I don't wanna study Management of Computer Networks anymoreeeeee T_T

Pfft, sissy.

Redundant.

 
 

You're never gonna tell them, aren't you?

That figures.


 


 

Voicemail.

Wuuuuu, nak salahkan siapa kalau malas minum air?
Nak salahkan siapa kalau diet tak seimbang?
Nak salahkan siapa kalau sakit tekak?
Nak salahkan siapa kalau migrain?
Nak salahkan siapa kalau tak dapat borak sebelum tidur?

Salahkan diri sendiri T_T

Tak cukup air + tak makan

=

SEMBELIT
---> (Teran) Sakit tekak + Migrain + Orang tua dah tidur

Grr.  Ahh tak faham sudah

Malam :(

Kuiz Busuk!

Ini kuiz busuk dengki namanya.
Sebab aku jawab aku tengah tak cinta siapa-siapa & tak pernah comolot dia cakap aku jadi andartu.
Tettt gila -____-"

In HD!

Tak pernah emosi sebegini tengok bola sepak.
Adrenalin gila laju.
Baru aku tahu perasaan benci pada pengadil, HAHA -_-"


Oh I find guys with lack of English skills are turn-offs.

JK!

Say hello to 'Everyday Class Ends at 6.20 pm!"

HELLO!!!!!  

T_T

Karut

Kepala blog baru di atas dan
gaya blog yang baru adalah karut.

Karut menandakan aku semakin malas.
Kepala blog yang baru tidak seberapa baru,
cuma diubah serba sedikit daripada hasil kerja yang lepas.

Karut apabila kawan-kawan mudah pergi apabila ada yang baru menemani.
Yang baru tetapi sebenarnya dahulu saja menyepi.
Memang karut tetapi tepat bahawasanya manusia senang lupa diri.
Karut semuanya.

Karut betul tatkala kesalahan tidak jelas pada yang melakukan.

Karut karut.
Benar-benar karut.

Kala Maghrib Azan Berkumandang

Anak menekan kekunci telefon bimbit:
02 November 2009, Isnin (07:07 malam)

"Mak! Org dining bodo! Yana order mi goreng tlur mata bgkus. Dh byr amek je x chck lak! Xde pn tlur.. Mst dia sngaje. Xbrkat la bisnes dia"

Balasan mesej:
02 November 2009, Isnin (07:13 malam)

"X baik camtu. Niat je sdkh utknye, awk dpt pahala. Kalau btul dia sngaja, tu antara dia dgn ALLAH. Bukan kita yg mnghisab. Rakib n 'atid ade. Salam"

Nasib baik mak aku bekap kau! Huh. Buduh
Terima kasih ibu.


Tiga kertas jatuh, dua lagi untuk pergi.

Update

Aku nak update weh, sumpah aku nak!
Tapi asyik tak menyempat.
Ini mencuri masa tidur namanya. Jam hampir menunjukkan pukul 1 pagi, dalam 7 jam lagi kelas CTU 263 akan bermula.
Ahhh, aku penat.

Tapi, ngada-ngada lebih.
Semua orang penat. Mana ada orang tak penat even dalam sehari
Cuba cakap, ada ke? Takda kan?
Maka jangan lebih-lebih keco bagai anda seorang sahaja yang ada ujian dan kuiz.
Kerana itu semua tak dapat dipisahkan daripada life kita sebagai student.
Aku benci kau, ye kau!

Ahh mata mengantuk buat aku emo!
Roommate aku baru sahaja cakap, "Ahhh mata aku dah nampak dua dah"
Itu tandanya dia mengantuk.
Aku pun mengantuk.

Aku nak update weh, sumpah aku nak!
Pasal ulangtahun kelahiran aku, pasal penyertaan dan kemenangan dalam UiTM Terengganu Discovery Challenge.
Tapi entah bila.

Mungkin by the time aku berkesempatan menulis panjang cerita-cerita itu sudah lapuk dimamah masa.
Entah mungkin dah takda follower.

Aku sedih, aku cemburu.
Aku menulis untuk aku dan untuk .... erm maybe untuk aku saja.

Hmm betul-betul pentingkan diri.
Patut lah orang benci

Tinta berdarah

Entri kali ini tidak bermotif.
Cuma cuma, hati rasa dirabak
Berminat pula dengan bait-bait ini :')

You're on the phone with your girlfriend
She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'cause she doesn't get your humor
Like I do

I'm in the room
It's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music
She doesn't like
She'll never know your story
Like I do

But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you see
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walking the streets
With you and your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking
This is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench
Thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Hey what you doing with a girl like that

She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you see
You belong with me
Standing by and
Waiting at your backdoor
All this time
How could you not know
Baby
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh, I remember
You driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me

Can't you see
That I'm the one
Who understands
Been here all along
So why can't you see?
You belong with me

Have you ever thought
Just maybe
You belong with me?


Yeah so the clip is a little bit cliche :)
But I've always love happy endings!
The song has always brighten up my day,
for the mean time

How You Love Me Now

So it's 12:53 am. Freaking tired. Today was a very exciting plus tiring plus lonely plus 'miserable at best' plus unfortunate day ever for me. Ask me why please. It's okay, I'll still tell. Just got back to the room around 11 something. Yeah, at night. I am sorry Mum if you're reading this, I know how much you hate it when I go out until late at night, but still, I was just going out for some recreation since it has been forever since I last do sports. I missed my younger brothers & sister so much & I feel very lonely every time I reminiscence the time when I'm at home during the holidays, how eager Fahmi the youngest was asking me to play some badminton with him. So I took the advantage of tomorrow's holiday by playing some badminton & squash in a hall at the stadium.

Honestly, that was the first time ever I've been in there even though I've already been staying at this dungeon for more than a year. It was fun, sprained the ankle a little bit. Feeling sore here & there but still, I had a great time; went there with the roommate Fatin Dalila & met up with some boyfriends.

Because girls are supposedly to be shy around boys, so yeah I was too. Play just a game or two for the badminton since the hall was dominated by boys. Oh and of course some of them are superb hot too! :) Oh well, just scratch that.

Earlier this evening, I failed to step on a stair & fell over. And guess what? I got this huge bruise on my left knee! It hurts so much & make it difficult for me to pray & accomplish & complete my daily routines.

_________

If there are actually any readers for the blog, I'm very thankful & can you at least give your opinions on my little perception towards the huge human race called male? It'll be much appreciated. It's okay enough if you already took your time to read this long post.

To Aisyah Rozi, please note that I'm not writing this in continuation of your post, to plagiarize your topic or anything. This is something that has just occurred to someone I know very well.

It may be me, or even you!

So here it goes.
How can guys be 'in love' with more than one girl in a moment? Yeah I know girls tend to have over passionate feelings like that too but the term 'PLAYBOY' is much more commonly used than the playgirl. Men are sweet talkers, correct? They can say all these charming words towards a girl but the next thing you know, he'll be sleeping in bed with other girl. They just have this kinda soft tongue & just know the right words to say, the right lies to convey. I tell you, it's very rare for young adult men to be so sensitive & caring & sensible & loyal towards a girl nowadays. Oh well I know it's the same goes to the girls too.

How do you feel when the guy who showed his very deep interest in you this morning; calling you dear, hold your hand, display a very sweet smile that may raise you up into the sky & those & that, but later that very evening you found out that he's doing & saying the same to another girl? I've been through that I tell you. NO LIE.

What is that for actually? To show how 'macho' he is, if he can get as many babes as he wants? To show how girls are easily falling in & out of love? Let me tell you something guys, love is not something that you can make a fool out of. Why should you play the innocent girls' feelings with all those crappy disgusting as-if-they-are-sweet words?! No doubt men are better off as the meanest creature on earth more than women.

Please don't disregard me as a sexist. Because of course, I'm not. I'm mad. Seriously, I'm feeling that certain men still think women are 'something' that they can play with. Something that will not last for long. You make this girl feel very special & unique. But have you ever think what will happen when one day the secret you've been hiding from everyone eventually burst out? Even if you have FOUR lovely babes you've secured with your words & smile but not with your heart, you will of course lose all of them as time passes by.

Don't go round telling your friends that you're in pursuit of this girl or that girl. Don't repeat it to her how cute you think she is or stuffs like that, which can make the girl feel very much appreciated & loved, if you are not actually interested in her. That will only crash all her hopes & dreams IF she IS interested in you too.

Guys. Oh, or is it just one of your way to find the perfect match for you? Who's the nice one, who's the bitchiest, who's the smartest or who's the dumbest to fell into your trap? Is that just it?! A stupid game you guys created? Well it's not fun at all. You'll be building this huge mountain of hope for the girls but the next thing YOU & EVERYONE know you were just fooling around just to fill your past time.

I just feel a little emotional tonight/morning. It could have been because I woke up around 6 something in the morning & still hasn't get any sleep or even nap throughout the day. But as I speak/type, I am sure I am not crappy or drunk or high on drugs.

Please guys, I dare begging you & even kneel down in front of you. Just don't say you like more than one girl & flirt with each & everyone of them everyday & every minute through SMS but you have no intention whatsoever to have a serious or steady relationship. There's nothing wrong if you just confess your passionate feelings to the girl that you like or perhaps even love her!

There's this one thing about girls; they really hate being made as 'toys'. Because when they knew, they'll come & haunt you no lie no lie since revenge is as sweet as honey bee. This is something I wrote based on experience.

Call me a conservative but I still think most girls love to be loved & declaring a serious relationship is very important. Dishonesty is something to loathe! I'm sick of you. I'm sick of your act of concern towards me. I'm sick of your lies when you say you gave no hope to any of your girlfriends. You're super duper dumb if you think I will never manage to know what's in your mind! What's behind that charming smile! What's undercover the flirting eyes! You never know about me. Please, if I'm a friend, you should treat me as one, but not as the 4th girl of your dream! Now you guys know *sigh*

++ Thanks dear brother for pointing out that girls always get the wrong impression when guys are just trying to be nice :) It's true indeed. But there are certain limits that guys should obey.

Busuk

Dosa la berlakon!
Tak reti berlakon pula tu.
Tak baik perli-perli orang ni.
Perangai kau tu, tak cantekkkkk -_-"